unheard voices

The eff. I keep writing and spilling, but I just don't have the guts to post.
It won't even do any good.
So yeah. I'm posting this one.

"As a Muslim I need no other mediator or conduit to rely upon. I can have a direct line with God anytime I want" -Yvonne Ridley

I'll keep it between me and Him at the moment.

i wish

I don't want a guy who would blindly die for me. 
I want a guy who would die for Islam.
Now that's my idea of prince charming.

Impulsive

photo credits to Mia Sobhi for putting this on her facebook

Tak nak whine pasal academic tapi tak tahan macamane? Kalau taknak bace, tak payah.

Mum said, hang on, I can do this. Dad said it's normal cos he thinks I'm so pandai like that one. Where got? Friends(most) are struggling as well. And they all face the exact/almost the same amount of pressure that I'm feeling right now.

SERABUT.

I was so high yesterday and today, I hit the rock bottom.

"Crawl back up" - Syarfa, Oct 6th 2010.
Yes darling, I WILL.

unhealthy thoughts?

Dark thoughts crept in this morning. I don't have the slightest reason why. Probably because I'm missing too much. My family is my life, my everything. If I ever lose them, I'll be a living zombie; lifeless, rotten and scares the hell out of everyone. So my eyes prickled with tears, chest tightened, teeth clenched. Oh Lord, one day I know that you'll take them away from me. They're not even mine to begin with. But please, give me strength when that day happens. For I can't bear.. 

The thing that scares me about future is it's unknown. Unknown by humans.

We only know that it's already written.

I hope to see them again.

touched

touched by how much you still care. sorry for not being the one to initiate. thank you for the advice and sharing. let's remember our new resolution. i'll be back to check up on you ;)