bad deja vu

There's a reason why my past life is called my past. And if you remind me of my past again, you'll be in my past too.

Sorry for being uptight. I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice. A reminder for you.

Rant

"Mama tanya kenapa kakak dah lama tak skype?" - Abah

Because Malaysia is half way around the world from here, and the time differs in exactly 12 hours which means that we both ought to be doing the exact opposite thing every second. I'm so sorry Ma. I really wanted to skype with you this morning but I was up till late last night because I was deeply caffeinated since yesterday evening, so my brain won't shut, and my neighbor was being a jerk, and I cried like fck last night because I miss home so bad. Which by the way, I tried calling you both but none of you picked up.

Talk to you soon when I'm in a better shape, I promise.
Your miserable daughter at the moment.
I would feel better if this is PMS but it's not, it's one of my mood swings.

I wish you would realize

"I don't believe in God. If there's God, why would there be so much pain and suffering in this world?"

I know you know better fellow Muslim. You've been taught. Who created all the pain and suffering? Who disobey God's rules? The consequences are usually known, but why oh why do some people are still being stubborn?

Who created you? People discover science but who created "science"? Only Allah the Almighty can create such orderly creations, with a complete what we call "mother nature" to complement and support human beings. Yes, we can learn all there is to know about oxygen but can't you see, where does oxygen come from? Who why where howwww? Doesn't all this questions make you think? Worship Allah and only Him. Not your desires.

So stop, stop making excuses. You're a Muslim to begin with, and the truth is right before your eyes. Don't get caught up in this wonderful but cruel world.

Saya orang Indon dan saya tak pandai berbahasa Inggeris

Sometimes, it gets to me when people are being so ignorant towards international students. I guess that's how the foreigners who worked in Malaysia feel when the Malaysians stereotyped them. I almost forgot how it feels like when people have no idea about where I come from, what language do I speak, how do I cope, where is Malaysia and such. But it's fine.

Hello world, I'm coming thru! Make way.

mengumpat

"Dosa mengumpat bukan sahaja besar, malah antara dosa yang tidak akan diampunkan oleh Allah biarpun pelakunya benar-benar bertaubat. Dosa mengumpat hanya layak diampunkan oleh orang yang diumpatkan. Selagi orang yang diumpatnya tidak mengampunkan, maka dosa itu akan kekal dan ... menerima pembalasannya diakhirat"
- shared by Kak Azzah Anuar.

Kalau tak rasa apa-apa bila baca ni, tak tau nak kata apa. Takut kan? Sometimes, when we badmouth someone intentionally, usually it's because we're so freaking pissed, dissatisfied etc. (in my case), we don't really think about it as mengumpat. Sometimes, we unintentionally badmouthed somebody because we just wanna share, or help, or when we're sad and we need someone to listen.

We can't run away from being irrational, bitter, impulsive, careless and some other flaws that human beings generally possessed. But we can try our best to avoid them. Think before you flip out on someone. Hold your tongue darling and take a deep breath. This reminder goes to me as well, especially to me.

It's never too late to apologize. And it's always the right time to forgive. Sometimes I pray, I pray that those people who I've wronged will forgive me, because sometimes, I didn't even realize what I've done. And I'll tell Him that I forgive everyone who had do me wrong. I don't know if that works, but I hope it does. As long as I'm ikhlas.

Takutkan? Rasa macam tak boleh lari daripada mengumpat. Nak kata perempuan, ada je yang tak mengumpat, manusia, ada je yang tak mengumpat jugak. Diri sendiri yang tak betul.

Kita tak tau bila kita mati,

We did solat hajat today for a dear Malaysian student in, I can't remember sorry, somewhere in the US. Unfortunately, she was diagnose with 4th stage cancer, she found out about it just a little too late. We did everything we could to help but hanya Allah yang berkuasa. Let's hope that she & her family will stay strong through all this. Amin.

"Kalau boleh, buatlah solat taubat tu selalu. Once a month. Or once every six months. Kalau nak lg bagus, once a week" - a person that I look up to.

Also, I read a blogpost regarding arwah Naim who passed away after dibuli/ragging by his form 5 seniors. I think Malaysian students are aware of this case. Benda ni blh jadi kat mane2 je kan. Lelaki, sekolah RMC pulak tu, hebat ah, captain bola, wow, itu-ini, form 5, senior weh, ape kes, testosterone & adrenaline penuh, "I'm the man!" Blah lah, Who cares motherf-? WHO CARES? Yang mcm tu lah yang biasenye dah besar haprak je. Tak guna. I was in high school myself. I've SEEN my dear friend (form 2) dibelasah by form 3 & 4 idiots, ape lagi jalan laju2, mata berair, time tu baru form 1. Why? Sebab benda bodoh. Anyway, the person who wrote this post is the big brother to one of the form 4 students there, kawan kpd arwah. Please read.

http://nazrinafifinasruddin.blogspot.com/2010/06/rmc-boy-dies.html

Al-Fatihah.

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lies/liar

1. telling the same lie numerous times doesn't make it the truth.

2. you can tell that someone is lying if they're the first ones to break the eye contact.

3. a person who doesn't feel guilty when telling lies are just sick!

4. not telling the truth doesn't make someone a liar, NOT TELLING. but changing the story/fact is a lie!

5. decorating the story to spice it up is also a lie.

6. not all lies are bad. i.e. little white harmless lies; but they may be wrong.

7. everybody lies, at least 10 times in their life (i-tell-lies-for-his/her-own-good or because-i-had-to is also a lie, face it!)

8. stop telling the same lie over and over again, it wont come true and it makes people sick.

thank you.

ps: post ini tiada kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yg mati.